I spend entirely too much time thinking of things I do not want, things I try my best to avoid. So for once I will allow myself to think of the things I do want.

1. My dream house.
I'm not entirely sure what it looks like. But certain images come to mind that make me think 'this is what it will look like'.








2. A epic garden I can have fairy-tea parties with my kids in.






3. Babies, kittens, and puppies!






4.Goddess Dresses and stretched ears




5.True, ever-lasting, inseparable Love.

Visions of my summer...

So, it's been a while since I last posted.
and by that I mean a real post, not the notice to myself that my blog was private.

I have about two weeks of school left. I am saddened and excited by this. I'm quite happy because the Friday before the halls close I am being picked up by my mother who I haven't seen since christmas, and I am going home for the first time in...well, I really can't remember the last time I was home. Honestly, I am a bit homesick but I am not wanting to deal with my mom's boyfriend. It's actually the exact reason I haven't been home in so long. But, I will stay there for a while because my mom is so happy and excited about me coming back. She even sent me a card just to tell me how much she is looking forward to it. After a few weeks of mommy time and blood tests at the doctors appointment, I will be going back to my second home, Madalyn's house. I'm quite excited about this as well because I haven't had much time to just be around friends in a while. I'm also looking forwards to adventures with Sarah and Hannah and hopefully Stephanie. This year has made me realize that I need to be around people I love to remind me that my life is pretty amazing. The downside to this is that I probably wont be able to see Jeremiah too often this summer. But I guess since we made it through last summer, we can make it through this one. It will be incredibly depressing but I'll have my best friends with me to keep me thinking happy thoughts full of night picnics, dress ups, and long car rides :]

I hope this summer will be as wonderful as I'm thinking it up to be.

I had never understood the expression
about your heart being in your mouth
It beat there, choking me with blood
- Francesca Lia

Not sure what raptor Jesus has to do with zombie Jesus, but I know there has to be a connection...

Not much has happened since my last post. I've pretty much been busy with studying and doing homework. I should be doing some now actually, but I'd rather procrastinate and blog about pretty much nothing.
So, other than school work I have been reading this book (borrowed from Sarah :]) "Ghost Boy" by Lain Lawrence and it is pretty amazing. The first chance I got some free time, I sat down with it and read the first 15 chapters. It's pretty amazing so far. It's about a albino boy who decided to follow the traveling carnival so he can meet another albino. It's pretty emotional. I cried a few times and I'm not even that far into it.
This weekend was pretty odd. Apparently everyone on campus went home for Easter but me. I was literally the only girl on my floor. It was nice not having to listen to screams at 3 am or walking back from the bathroom to find a drunk girl in her panties lying in front of my door. So, everyone is back now and I'm not too happy about it. But I guess it's better than nothing...there are only a few weeks of school left and I'm not looking forward to it. I've gotten pretty used to Morgantown and I really don't want to leave. I'm definitely going to have to find a job this summer or I will most likely go insane.

Can you hear my heart?

This weekend was pretty nice for me. I spent it with Brittanni at her apartment, and we pretty much stayed up all night playing video games, ransacking Steven's room, eating taco bell and pizza, and laughing so hard her roommate beat on the walls to inform us she didn't care about our joyfulness.
Today I met with my math tutor and after an hour and a half I could actually do the problems they were currently doing in class. He's a pretty amazing teacher; he can point out exactly where I mess up and he usually knows what I was trying to do when I screwed it up,lol. I was pretty embarrassed because at first he had me adding and subtracting positive and negative numbers when the two guys also being tutored were doing formulas and going over their 90% test scores, but I'm so ecstatic that I learned how to do problems correctly that it doesn't even matter. I wish I would have gotten tutors a long time ago.
I really should be studying for my abnormal psych test, but I felt I needed to update my blog since I haven't in such a long time : / I promise I'll update more frequently, and with more pictures.



On another note, I've noticed that a lot of relationships are falling apart. It's not specifically anyone I know personally, more of a 'friend of a friend' type of thing, but it makes me really sad. I have noticed that relationships around me/involving me tend to begin in Autumn and break away in the Spring. I think this is why I love Autumn so much. Rather than things dying in Autumn and being re-born in the spring, it feels completely backwards for me.