Happeh Birthday to Daveh!!!

33 years ago today, a savior was born!

I want to be the girl Ville Valo sings about...

I can't help myself sometimes...

and it's not just shallow teen crushes...I love these men because they are poets <3

psyche reborn

I was dead.
Used and discarded.
Left to die.
A demon from my past had torn my bleeding heart
right from my chest
then sucked the breath from my blue lips,
but he did not stop there.
He wasn't satisfied with what he had done
so he dug up my corpse and drug it behind him like a ragdoll.
For years he kept me with him,
performing makeshift autopsies and searching for a soul.
He needed mine for he did not have one himself.
I realized far too late that the pain was not worth it
and gave him my soul.
Content at last, the demon dug a grave and tossed me in,
covering me with a blanket of dirt.
A year passed as I decomposed and sang my sorrow,
skin growing tight and withering away.
You found me there.
You recognized the macabre tune for you knew it all too well.
You unearthed my bones and put them back together,
one by one.
You doctored my remains as the skin and hair began to grow back.
You breathed life into my carcass and you gave me your soul.
You wrapped your wings around me and whispered promises of eternity.
I didn't believe in immortality until you gave it to me.
Until you gave me life.

I was never a Goddess

So, I found this while I was cleaning my room. I wrote it a few months ago.


You are Love and I am Psyche.
Psyche means soul.
I do not believe one can exist without the other.
I never should have doubted...but I was weak
and now I cant go back
He is Orpheus and I am Eurydice.
One day his doubt will be too much
and when he looks back
I'll be gone.
But until he looks back
I'll be there
because if Im not,
he will end up like me
and I cant do that to him.
I hate to admit how
selfish I am,
but after he looks back
I hope I can find you.
I know I wont be able to at first...
there will be many things
I'll have to do to get to you.
I've briefly known Narcissus
and Ive been Echo most of my life
All that will be left for me is Hades.
I deserve that more than anything
because I doubted...
and I still doubt.
I was never a Goddess.

I'm pretty tired right now. Not sleepy, but my body is exhausted. I don't think I slept well last night. I remember waking up a few times. Then I slept through my alarm that was set for 6:30 and woke up at 7:45. Sooo when I got online to register for my classes, some of them were full and I had to find other ones. I think I'm pretty happy with my schedule though.

*Psychology as a Profession
*Intro to Theatre
*Intro to Library Research
*Intro to Anthropology
*English 101
*Intro to Abnormal Psychology
and I have to take a math workshop(which I won't get credits for) cause I'm a sped :p

I really wish I could sleep right now. I have nothing to do. I guess I could be working on homework or studying for tests, but I'd much rather watch spongebob re-runs.

you're the only song I want to hear

So, it's 12:51 and I should be at least making an attempt to sleep, but I just can't bring myself to do so. I don't really know why but I'm having quite a bit of trouble sleeping at night. Even when I don't spend the first part of the day napping, It's very hard for me to just slow everything down. Sleep wont seem to come anymore. I haven't updated my blog in a while and I realized it was kinda pointless to have a link to it on myspace if I didn't use it, so I'm just going to write about whatever comes to mind at this point. My Halloween wasn't as filled with as much child like awe as I would have liked. I didn't even dress up. Hell, I didnt even go out. I did my laundry. I'm hoping next year will be better. It's the only holliday I really look forward to and it's a let down when it just passes with no memories to have. The rest of the weekend was pretty nice though. I spent it with Jeremiah mostly. He gave me a wonderful hair cut and Im liking it quite a bit. After I sleep on it I end up looking a bit like Zoolander, but it's worth it. Wednesday will be our one year anniversary. There was a brief period when we werent together, but we've come much too far to just start over. It felt like I was his the entire time anyways, and thats all that matters to me. He said the sweetest words earlier and It made me feel so amazing that I feel the need to post them


and...You are the greatest thing in my life...There is no question as to how much you love me...We have been through a lot together...and I am pretty sure our souls are so intertwined that not even god could separate us........You are my everything, and I know I mean everything to you...


I cant even begin to express how much it meant to hear that. I think for the first time in my life I'm actually going to be happy. I didnt think I'd ever be able to say that, but he gives me hope.
<3